tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-80978332011-04-21T13:05:51.953-07:00ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.comBlogger1351100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1116238348224592332005-05-16T18:12:00.000-07:002005-05-16T03:12:28.240-07:00haiz.. why i fail maths leh?? haiz.. issit i really dun have da "xin" to do.. or i juz simply dunno wat to do.. haiz.. or i am stupid..? haiz.. i think i am really stupid.. i have a stubborn thinking.. which i know myself.. but i keep thinking that this is rite..which is not...haiz.i dun wanna say much. nvm..<br /><br />sadx.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111623834822459233?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1116158233071552772005-05-15T19:57:00.000-07:002005-05-15T04:57:13.070-07:00today so sianz.. acc my sis and mum go jp.. ya.. ntg much..<br /><br />i already lost everything.... haiz.. love.. studies... haiz.. only got my family and my frenz..<br /><br />haiz..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111615823307155277?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1115987437729500352005-05-13T20:30:00.000-07:002005-05-13T05:30:37.736-07:00haiz.. today.. phy and dnt paper... oh.. i hate phy!!! omg.. mdm lee set the paper until like that..wat sia.. easy until i dunno how to do.. haiz.. wat is density???? huh??? i wrote nonsense!!!! haiz.. wat is weight?? wat sia.. why like that lor.. haiz.. i nv study sec3, haiz.. only 3 qsn on sec if i am not wrong.. haiz.. i rather wan mr yip to set...!!!! haiz.. i dun wan to say much la.. i confirm fail phy de.... i practical for phy already confirm fail.. die liao la!!!! haiz...<br /><br />lonely.. lonely... alone.. alone... haiz.. sadx....!!! :(:( i am so lonely.. i am so lonely.. i am nobody...<br /><br />my heart is like breaking into pieces... when i wan to give up on u.. i dun wan to.. but i hafta... i dun wan to.. haiz.. i really dunno wat to do la.. haiz.. i dun wan to.. i dun wan to.. i dun wan to... wat am i doing??? huh?? i also dunno wat the hell am i doing?? someone plz help me plz... huh?<br />i need someone rite now.. someone that can tell me wat to do.... haiz.. i dunno..i dunno.. haiz.. i am so sosososososososososososososo confused... haiz...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111598743772950035?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1115782211680276582005-05-10T11:30:00.000-07:002005-05-10T20:30:11.686-07:00haiz.. now then i know being love is wondeful.. is great.. yes, i admit that i know. but i dun like at that time. coz i like another person. haiz.. but see u like someone.. i also feel happy for u.. haiz.. now then i know how u feel.. its wat i am now.. haiz.. confusion.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111578221168027658?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1115616208846063752005-05-08T13:24:00.000-07:002005-05-08T22:23:28.956-07:00hate me if u wan.. up to u.. haiz.. i juz wanna continue my life... haiz.. sianz..<br /><br />i finally online..haiz..today damm sianz.. mother tongue paper one and chem.. haiz.. chem i everything dunno...haiz.. die la die la..<br /><br />hmm.. wells.. really somethings.. haiz.. better give up or else too late.. later more sad...<br /><br />haiz..tml practical and geog!! argh...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111561620884606375?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1115382523400668022005-05-06T20:28:00.000-07:002005-05-06T05:28:43.433-07:00haiz.. exams sux.. haiz.. i hate exams..!!!! argh.. sry for not posting.. i was busy studies and memorising those stupid facts!! haiz.. PS...!! :):)<br /><br />haiz... those days.. i miss them!!!! those days when there is band..... when there is a camp.... 2 camps for preparing SYF... haiz.. i miss them... and.. of coz.. i miss u too...<br /><br />haiz... let me think.. 5 months... i like u for 5 months le.. not only 5 months.. still got days.. i forgot le.. :) haiz.. thats is fast... one blink.. 5 months.. few more months.. i will be leaving sch... haiz.. sadx.. dunno whether i can leave or not.. later go ITE or retain aR.. omg.. i am scared.. haiz..<br /><br />today.. mother tongue.. oh gosh!! i study so hard.. in the end 5 words tested..haiz.. sadx.. history..?? i cant complete my essay!!! my SBQ.. i dunno how to answer the qsn.. haiz.. sad leh..!!!<br /><br />omg.. dnt.. my class is behind time.. gotta come back for remedial.. haiz. sadx.<br /><br /> tried to forget u.<br /> but i cant...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111538252340066802?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1114865683539479552005-04-30T20:54:00.000-07:002005-04-30T05:54:43.540-07:00haiz.. i will juz.............<br /><br />wells... i really cant do this.. dun tell me all these... i am afraid to lose u... i am really.. really.. scared... afraid..... afraid.... i nv been like this before...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111486568353947955?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1114864364246292862005-04-30T20:32:00.000-07:002005-04-30T05:32:44.246-07:00ni ai wo hai shi ta.. haiz...<br /><br />i juz cant forget u.. i dun wan u to walk away... forgetting the love i had for u...<br /><br />haiz..<br /><br />red tea or green tea...???<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111486436424629286?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1114693083286826052005-04-28T20:57:00.000-07:002005-04-28T05:58:03.286-07:00haiz. dunno wat to say..haiz.... today.. boring day..!! ntg mucch... :) haiz..<br /><br />somtimes.. i dunno how to face u.. sometimes.. i dunno.... dunno.. dunno.. really dunno...<br /><br />did i really like u so much?? is this love?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111469308328682605?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1114520247412370482005-04-26T20:57:00.000-07:002005-04-26T05:57:27.413-07:00haiz.. i didnt see u today..i miss u. i am saying the truth.. although i tried so hard.. but i cant. really. i dunno wat to do.. plz help me..haiz.. sadx..<br /><br />u must try in order to taste it.. if not.. u will not know it tastes better than wat u think.. thats wat i can say to u.<br /><br />haiz. nvm. i dunno.. mid year coming..i dare not to think too mucch.. conccentrate on studies more important... :) studies first...!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111452024741237048?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1114000098197799302005-04-20T20:28:00.000-07:002005-04-20T05:28:18.196-07:00haiz.. today sianz.. unlucky... angry... haiz.. wateva.. no mood.. depressed.. emotionless.. haiz... dun wish to memtion wat happen today.. so angry at it!! haiz.. nvm.<br /><br />phy..!!! haiz.. new chapter. stress.. combined humans.. got SS paper.. haiz..sad.. i cant get the top... top is yixiang! haiz.. sad story... haiz.. add altogether juz pass... omg... haiz.. sadx.. nvm.recess.. cant get to see him, he second recess.. :( MMM... english..sianz.. history.. haiz.. same topic.. do worksheet at com lab.. haiz.. then class finish.. do ntg.. then do cme project... then go home.. then go gek poh eat lunch wif my sis..thats all...<br /><br />haiz.. omg. this is bad.. how ome the whole class shouted his name?? hmm. i am scared that he'll be scared as he dunno most of my classmates.. will he blame me? will he hate me?<br /><br />hmm.. haiz.. dunno... haiz...i am soo.... sadx... haiz.. i dunno how to say.. dunno how to express my feelings.. haiz... all i wan is............... yayaya....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111400009819779930?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1113740027216526322005-04-17T20:13:00.000-07:002005-04-17T05:13:47.216-07:00let me get drunk... let me lay down in the bed coz of coma.. let me get out of this maze... let me out.. haiz.. juz.. i am miserable... why torture myself??? huh?? wake up plz!!!! wake up...!! u are still in ur dreamland where u sldnt belong to... haiz..<br /><br />today i drink and drink.. but still cant be drunk.. haiz.. failure... haiz. the only thing is to prevent myself from thinking unrealistic thingy is to drink...!! haiz.. i wanna get drunk.. i juz dun wan wat i am now...haiz.. haiz.. haiz..<br /><br />why am i still thinking bout u when u dun......................................... haiz..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111374002721652632?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1113656632381916992005-04-16T21:04:00.000-07:002005-04-16T06:03:52.383-07:00haiz..sad.. i got alot of things in my heart... i wan to spill then all out.. i wan to die!!!<br />i wan to die.. i am crazy!!!!!!! aRRRggghhhhhhHHH...... haiz.. nvm.<br />someday we will know.. one day we will know....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111365663238191699?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1112962503704700142005-04-08T20:14:00.000-07:002005-04-08T05:15:03.706-07:00it has been a long time i nv go post..<br /><br />well.. today was a boring day.. again. band. hmm..4 more days to syf.. i wish that i can step down rite after syf.. haiz..<br /><br />well.. somethings u can give up.. but giving someone.. is difficult.. i tried to.. but i cant.. haiz.. are u really that important to me?? are u really???????? haiz.. i dunno!!! i tried to give up.. say the truth.. but.. everytime i think of u.. some angels or sld i say devils, came to my mind and ask me not to give up.. haiz. i wan to.. i really wan to.. coz i think that.. even though i continue to...... we cant be together.. haiz..from my bottom of my heart, i love u.i wan u.seriously..i tried already.. i tried my best to have the courage to ask u for stead, to make u be mine..but it doesnt work. frenz ask me to give up.. some ask me to try again.. so how? hmm.. i really dunno.. really wan to be a happy person. i'am indeed happy.. its juz the outside of me.. not the inside... inside.. my heart was bleeding.. whenever i see u.. i tried to make myself happy.. by acting crazy sometimes.. or by nature, i am a joker...but i will make ppl laugh easily.. lol.. BHB.. :) but why cant i make myself laugh?? why i cant make myself happy and smile often...?? ya, i indeed smile often.. i was happy everytime.. but.. once again.. itz juz the outside of me.. not the inside.. haiz.. i really really.... very sad.. unhappy.. depressed.. i really breaking down whenever i lay down on my bed.. can u tell me in front of my face that u hate me?? can u?? if u say this.. it will make me feel better.. i really wan the real me to come alive again..!! come, hate me..hate me plz!! hate me!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111296250370470014?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1111752172927970332005-03-25T20:02:00.000-08:002005-03-25T04:02:52.926-08:00haiz...today is so sianz.. haiz.. good friday staying at home.. omg.. :(:( sad story.. hehex.. hmm.. but good la.. i do my dnt folio.. haiz.. always the folio bothering me.. haiz.. sianz.. haiz.. i now then realise that english sux.. haiz.. i failed my english.. and my maths.. haiz.. no where to go..only ITE!!<br /><br />hehex..today went to my fren hse.. for chem.. hmm.. then we play tarot.. haiz.. its was so true sia..!! haiz.. omg.. i cant believe!!!<br /><br />tml band.. sianz. until 4.. i will die. that all. tata.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111175217292797033?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1111494056434015822005-03-22T20:20:00.000-08:002005-03-22T04:20:56.436-08:00hmm..today sianz.. haiz..sianz.. first period.. pure history.. haiz..that si weihao!! ask me always go fuck one..omg.. haiz.. buay tahan him leh..!! heheX.. haiz. then english..sianz... haiz.then ccombined humans..sianz.. haiz.then its pe..!! heheX.. goodie!! but that bong!! ask us to run outside hall.. haiz.then do all those stupid thingy.. but its gd for NAFA.. nvm. hehex.. haiz.. then recess kau asked us to go see dentist!! omg.. i am scared.. haiz..i waited almost 1/2hour then its my turn..so sianz..but gd.. can escape mdm chua lesson..:):) hehex.. then its cme!! omg...!! haiz.that yip ask us to form cme grp..haiz.. then break.. then dnt.. go dnt workshop... folio again! haiz.. nvm.. i like it. :) geezZ... :):)<br /><br />haiz..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111149405643401582?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1111406667635977612005-03-21T20:03:00.000-08:002005-03-21T04:04:27.636-08:00forgetting its how long that i think of u, telling me ur fav fairytale story. i have been thinking very long. i am worried issit i did something wrong. u cried in front of me, telling me that everything in the fairytale is fake. i cant be yr prince or u dun understand when u said u love me. the stars in my sky will brighten.<br /><br />i rather be an angel that u like in e fairytale. spread my hands out to become wings to protect u. u must believe that we will be like wat in e fairytale. happiness is e ending.<br /><br />u cried in front of me, telling me that everything in the fairytale is fake. i cant be yr prince or u dun understand when u said u love me. the stars in my sky will brighten.<br /><br />i rather be an angel that u like in e fairytale. spread my hands out to become wings to protect u. u must believe that we will be like wat in e fairytale. happiness is e ending.<br /><br />i wan to be the angel that u like in e fairytale. spread my hands out to become wings to protect u. u must believe that we will be like wat in e fairytale. happiness is e ending.<br /><br />i will be the angel that u like in e fairytale. spread my hands out to become wings to protect u. u must believe that we will be like wat in e fairytale. happiness is e ending. and together we will write our ending.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111140666763597761?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1111213357444785842005-03-18T14:22:00.000-08:002005-03-18T22:22:37.443-08:00hmm..sry.. few days nv write le.. heheX.. 14-16 i went for band camp.. haiz.. sianz.. during da camp.. i cant sleep... awww...so sad.. hmm...well.. da camp.. hahaX.. i was quite happy.. quite sianz also.. hmm.. i dun wan to say much. :)<br /><br />hmm.ytd went for band again!! exchange wif 15 other schx.. hehex.. got some shuai ge.. heheX..cool!!!<br /><br />haiz.. ntg much la.. i dun wan to say so much.. so sianz..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111121335744478584?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1110543872047751482005-03-11T21:23:00.000-08:002005-03-11T04:24:32.050-08:00let me tell u a story.. plz read...<br />one day a fisherman went fishing.. while fishing.. a fish swim towards him.. but the fisherman dun wan to catch the fish.. supposingly fisherman's job is to catch fish and live rite? but this fisherman nv catch the fish... the fish asked him why he dosen't wan to catch the fish even though the fish is rite infront of him.. fisherman replied that he had enough of catching fishes and he doesn't wan to catch fish anymore.. so e fish swim away quietly... feeling sad..depressed.. wondering why the fisherman doesn't wan to catch it. haiz.. now e fish has to find another fisherman who can catch it, but this will not make the fish so happy coz maybe e other fisherman might juz wan some parts of e fish..nt e whole fish.. MAYBE only... so.. although e fish is half dead. it is able to survive coz it still has water to support it.. to give it freedom... but fish wans happiness.. it's happiness is to let e fisherman find it and catch it.. but now on e sea.. there are no fisherman ard.. there was once a lot of fishermen but fish lost e chances..<br /> -depressing wee-<br />***moral of e story.. dun drive towards e dead end even though u know its a dead end.. ur car will eventually crash into e dead end...<br /><br />8-3-05<br />today went to sch as per normal.. haiz..today sianz..first period was history.. but luckily go com lab... :) haiz..sianz aR!! haiz.. then english..dunno wat compo again.. haiz.. sianz.. always write.. i am tired.. and depressed.. haiz..sadx.. ok. combined humans.. haiz..cant get back paper.. wait for tml.. i scaredd i failedd... so far every paper i got i fail.. i wish to pass juz one sub i am happy.. haiz.. but of coz.. say the truth.. i dun wan to juz pass on sub only la.. if not i o level like that die liao.. haiz... then pe ah bong nv come.. that was a gd thing. :) hahax. then recess.. haiz.. was one of the earlist to go down for recess... hehex.. haiz.. good thing was i can eat.. bad thing is i saw a person who i dun wish to see today.. it will make me more depress... but in e end. i saw him twice.. nvm.. i hid my feelings inside.. and pretend to be happy.. i was laughing in class as usual.. but.. my laughs and smiles are all fake..!!! i cant simply be happy rite??? nvm. dnt test... i got study..luckily.. but wat i studied nv came out..in the end is all the properties.. hmm..well..overall i know how to do my dnt...<br /><br />7-3-05<br />monday sch..boring..hahax..ntg much. sadx.depressed.<br /><br />4-3-05<br />x-country!!! i am surprised that my stamina dropped a lot.. sad!!! haiz..i came in the 69th out of dunno how many B gals.. haiz.. heng i in the top 100!!! so happy!! hahax.. tired... dun wish to say much.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111054387204775148?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1110543474482998172005-03-11T20:16:00.000-08:002005-03-11T04:17:54.483-08:00so mean so mean so mean.. so unfair.. everything is... haiz..omg.. so sadx.. :( okay... i dun iwsh to say anymore coz it hurts me lots.. i juz gonna say.. fine.. well.. nvm. haiz...<br />hm..today went jp after sch wif HY and KL.. ate delifrance... then HY went home.. then left me and KL.. then we went pet shop.. then walk walk then saw my fav colour wrist band at 77 street!! i want that colour!!!! then go back sch for phy remedial and band.. haiz.. hahaX.. we do DC cicuits.. hmm.. well.. now i understand liao.. that is great!! hahaX. then went for band.. haiz.. i really dun wish to go for band.. it suckx!! haiz.. i dun wish to say y i dun like band la.. haiz. there are many reasons.. sadx.. e moment i stepped into e band rm.. i felt depressed.. and angry... nvm. dun say le..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111054347448299817?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1110289824511935592005-03-08T21:50:00.000-08:002005-03-08T05:50:24.513-08:00<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-111028982451193559?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1109842590840328532005-03-03T17:35:00.000-08:002005-03-03T01:36:30.840-08:00hahaX!! hello!! i finally online le!! :) yeah!!!! hmm..well.. sry wor.. nowadays got test..then no time to go online.. haiz.. sianz./.today juz finish my chem and maths!! dnt mr leow postpone le!! muahaha!! if not i will stress like hell wor!! :) hehex.. hmm... haiz... sianz..today was LATE day...<br /><br />haiz..i tried to forget.. i tried to ignore rumours... but i cant...!!! coz its true.. ok? haiz.. dunno... dunno..its easy for a guy to say i love u.. but it wasnt easy for a gal to say i love u... i wanted to say.. but i cant do it.. i cant face u after all!! really..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110984259084032853?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1109421087055390442005-02-26T20:32:00.000-08:002005-02-26T04:31:27.056-08:00today..band.. haiz.. sianz.. hate band.<br /><br />i love him? yes i do.<br />i wan him? yes i wan.<br />i like him? yes i like.<br />juz wan to be wif him...<br />but cant... :(<br />can let me have a chance?<br />juz once?<br />but i know i will not have da chance..<br />haiz..<br />knowing that u are happy.. its enough.. wan to u to be happy.. is enough...<br />but.. i dun wan to be juz frenz.. i wan to know more bout u...!!! :(<br />can i?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110942108705539044?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1109420378031883452005-02-26T20:20:00.000-08:002005-02-26T04:19:38.033-08:00today band.. haiz..sianz.. yeah.. got problems.. but solved.. :) haiz.. ntg much. :) juz be happy..<br /><br />i love him? yes i do.<br />i wan him? yes i wan.<br />i like him? yes i like.<br />juz simply love him, and wan him.<br />but i cant. :(<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110942037803188345?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1109334263561417842005-02-25T20:24:00.000-08:002005-02-25T04:24:23.563-08:00wahz!! gonna prepare for o level!! todays motivation course.. hehex.. aim for wat i want!! :):)<br /><br />uts was a tiring day today..ran ard da sch 2 rds.. haiz.. tired!! then wah..got phy!! my class do circuit do until mad le.. lolx.. i blur liao!!! hahax.. then maths!! wah.. dunno how to do.i can die!!! :) hehex.. well..recess then dnt.. wah lau..now then i know why ppl hate mr leow.. haiz.. he nag and nag and nag... haiz.sianz nor..<br /><br />haiz..headache aR!! dun wan to post le..stop here. :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110933426356141784?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1109251161327239392005-02-24T21:18:00.000-08:002005-02-24T05:19:21.326-08:00sianz.<br /><br />i love u. u hate me. u hate me. i love u.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110925116132723939?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1109246110385891452005-02-24T19:55:00.000-08:002005-02-24T03:55:10.386-08:00haiz.. sry for not updating for a few days liao.. that time got exams.. then after that busy until no time. :) hahax.. hmm..well..today is a long day nor.. got lesson until 335 then got remedial till 5 plus.. haiz.. sianz nor.. tml got band.. dunno test wat air support all sort of stuffs.. seriously i really dunno how to breath in using diapraghm.. haiz.. its like when breath liao hohx.. then slowly go in again.. haiz.. use lungs better.. :) pri sch i also using lungs de.. then my sound is there.. also got gd air support.. haiz.. now leh.. different le.. haiz.. can i use my own way of breathing air when playing my flute.. haiz.. also. i hate band. :) really.. its wasting my time.. its tiring... haiz..<br /><br />its not meant to be... this sldn't be...<br /><br />haiz..now wat? dnt so difficult.. haiz.. sianz.. dunno wat to do.. and my "father" hohx.. he keep toking nonsense.. omg.. i was smiling when he toking to me. its rude.. but no choice.. i dunno how to face him.. haiz.. wat aR???? IDEAS!!! COME OUT LEH...!!! I WAN IDEAS!!! I-D-E-A-S<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110924611038589145?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1109067147237521492005-02-22T18:12:00.000-08:002005-02-22T02:12:27.236-08:00haiz..stress aR!! i juz came back from maths remedial..haiz.. stress aR!!! wah lau..tml got geog.. sianz leh.. wah lau.. :( haiz.. nvm then.. today ran 2.4 wah lau!! i one round take 8 mins.,. i gonna die liao.. cham liao la..!! :( i gonna fail for 2.4km.. and..the x-country i dunno how to run liao.. 2.4 so slow.. me run 3.8 more worst. i am scared..haiz..!!! die aR!! haiz..tml got band.. sadx.!! i wish wed got remedial!! hehex.. the happiest thing is that fri i got remedial..so i can skip band. :) the problem is.teacher ask us to go band. oh man!! shit!! :(<br /><br />haiz..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110906714723752149?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108980227685453932005-02-21T18:03:00.000-08:002005-02-21T02:03:47.686-08:00haiz..sianz.. hmm..today start sch again.. then maths.. wah lau.. filing again.. very luan leh!! so many pieces of paper.. haiz..then is combined humans.. haiz..mr chan said wed is our ca2.. siao la.. so fast.. and he didnt even tell us earlier.. now then tell.. omg.. fcuk man!! i gonna be mad liao la... haiz..so fast ca2... we juz break for 2 weeks only leh..then ca2 liao.. damm fast man!! i gotta work hard.. not much time to study nor...then like that like that.. then assembly tok bout x-country.. omg.. really is 3.8km for gals.. guys more worst... 4.8km.. how to run?? only the x-country one can run nor.. haiz.. today i nv go mac. reser. ..... hehex.. i dun wan to go.. so sianz.. i rather go home study better.. :) geeZ...<br /><br />haiz.. i had been thinking bout this since da day u asked me.. i think that it is better for us to stay like that coz i really dun wan to be hurt again.. one time is already enough for me le.. i dun wan to this to happen the second time le... i doubt now u r reading da post now.. so.. hope u understand.. :):):):) who ask u... rite? so like that lor.. ntg else..<br /><br />tml will be a late day for me.. 5pm go back.. omg.. will be tired man.. and da next day is ca2.. haiz.. haven touch on it yet lor..not i wan to complain.. but for sec4s.. why must we have remedials?? its so tiring.. haiz.. everyday go home ard 5pm.. except monday.. haiz.so sianz...!!! and.. i hate the 5 days work week..!! haiz.. all in the 5 days.. why cant sat?? now sat is booked by band.. oh.. haiz..so sianz.. :(<br /><br />why issit so good? u guys got telepathy aR? huh?? why? i am so fcuked up by this everytime i see this.. why?? why issit always wan to be the same together?? huh? why i cant?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110898022768545393?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108903099680454452005-02-20T20:38:00.000-08:002005-02-20T04:38:19.683-08:00i dunno why i wan to post one more time.. juz feel like posting.. maybe i bo liao la.. ntg to do.. surf net also ntg to surf.. haiz..<br /><br />wat is love actually? and wat is hate??<br /><br />can i dun enter the "love" world?? can i enter the "hate" world instead of "love"?? i really dun wan.. i dun wan to be hurt again!! its so painful to forget bout the past... hurts me lots.. i rather choose hate than love coz hate isnt as painful as love.. even though hate will hurt me too..<br /><br />i also dunno wat am i toking.. but juz wan to say... i am fcuked off by somethings.. pissed off wif someone.. and... a lot more!! i hate it!!!<br /><br />wat u really wan? juz say it straight.. i am impatient!!! haiz..dunno la.. confused liao..wat am i posting i also dunno..maybe i am mad nowadays.. juz dun care me... :) ok?? good. :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110890309968045445?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108901248699487562005-02-20T20:07:00.000-08:002005-02-20T04:07:28.700-08:00haiz.. sianz.. today went jurong point alone.. haiz..go library..return books.. and borrow books.. haiz..sianz aR!!! haiz..<br /><br />doesnt mean that got fate can be together... doesnr mean that no fate cannot be together... haiz.. doesnt mean that u love him u must be wif him..doesnt mean that u dun love him u must not be together... haiz.. haiz.. haiz... love.... wat is love wor??<br /><br />haiz... i juz ate my fav food.. minced meat mee pok!! muahaha.. nice nice..!! yummmmyyyyy!!!<br />i wan to play badminton.. i miss my racket.. i miss my badminton court..its not mine anyway!! its the neighbourhood's one..lolx.. i juz miss badminton!! haiz.. :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(<br /><br />aWWww..so sad... why like that? haiz..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110890124869948756?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108792599403569922005-02-19T14:00:00.000-08:002005-02-18T21:59:31.283-08:00wo de xin hen luan!!! hen luan hen luan!!! wo kuai shou bu liao le.. haiz..<br /><br />hoW?<br /><br />band so sianz.. sat band practices.. i dun wanna come..its so boring.. only play two songs.. i love foxfire.. not winter.. i wan to play foxfire... its nice... haiz.. hmm...<br /><br />so close.. but yet so far... why??<br /><br />got to see his backview is already very gd... i dun wan to look at him from the front.. looking at him from da back its already very gd.. haiz.. i dunno how to say... hen luan ar...<br /><br />why i cant smile? why i cant laugh? all da jokes that i laughed.. are all fake...!!! wanted to make myself happy.. but i cant.. why? i am always sad... wat thing makes me so sad? huh??<br /><br />i dunno wat to say.. i dunno wat to do.. i dunno who am i... i dunno wat am i...!!! i dunno..!! i dunno everything!!! hen luan ar..!!!<br /><br />juz wish... to know the answer.... asap... but i haven ask yet.. i dun wish to ask.. coz i can predict wat is the answer...<br /><br />its a very sad thing if u love someone/something.. and u let go... and coz u love.. u must let go...although it will make u feel relieved.. but sometimes..somehow.. u will think bout it...<br /><br />"gan qing shi bu ke yi mian qiang de... mian qiang jiu mei you xing fu..." haiz. ya..!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110879259940356992?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108728652954823852005-02-18T20:10:00.000-08:002005-02-18T04:10:52.956-08:00haiz.. why must be me?? haiz.. i am softhearted sometimes.. really wan to forgive wateva u have done.. and juz forget.. haiz.. hoW?? ya..i still cannot forget u.. somehow...really.. i dunno wat to do..shall i juz love u again?? huh?? u tell me... why must this time u showed up?? haiz........<br /><br />hmm...there are somethings that we cant get it for free... sometimes.. we had to sacrifice to get it!! haiz.. haiz.. and.. there is always somethings that we need to let go coz we love them..!! u know.. haiz.. letting them go is great... but u will regret somehow..someday... really.. so..grab ur chances now lor.. :)<br /><br />hmm.i dunno wat to say liao... juz wanna say... i am depressed.. i am sad.. i am... dunno.. juz.. haiz..a bit of confusion... :S<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110872865295482385?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108646064891370212005-02-17T21:14:00.000-08:002005-02-17T05:14:24.893-08:00i still love u... am i?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110864606489137021?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108641807088422002005-02-17T20:00:00.000-08:002005-02-17T04:03:27.090-08:00how?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110864180708842200?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108640443186508882005-02-17T19:41:00.000-08:002005-02-17T03:40:43.186-08:00haiz..today sianz.. most sianz de.. lesson until almost five!! omg.. dying soon la.. everyday got remedial except monday and wed..argh.. sianz nor.. haiz...!!! hmm.. i dunno wat to say..i juz wanna say.. guys are all the same!! sux..!!! haiz.. juz hate them in some ways... haiz..<br /><br />got somethings must say..some not.. so.. better dun.. haiz..<br /><br />dnt..i finally know wat to do le.. heheX.. muahahha...<br /><br />love no one.. is a great thing..also a sad thing..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110864044318650888?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108461748882880032005-02-15T18:02:00.000-08:002005-02-15T02:02:28.883-08:00haiz.. so sadx..i had really decide choosing red tea.. i will have no regrets.. haiz..finally can let out this~~ phew!!! its so tiring...!!!<br /><br />today during humans lesson..mr chan suddenly mad...omg.. i shocked.. he was angry...!!!! today got fire drill...!! haiz..weather so hot..!!<br /><br />i got ntg to say.. ya..really!!! red tea!! final answer...!! and i will not...... ***************************<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110846174888288003?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108385067328571232005-02-14T20:43:00.000-08:002005-02-14T04:44:27.330-08:00nvm..no matter wat i choose.. i will not regret...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110838506732857123?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108383620859517862005-02-14T20:18:00.000-08:002005-02-14T04:20:20.860-08:00red tea is yes.. green tea is no...<br /><br />shall i choose red tea or green tea?? most likely is red tea..<br /><br />i really gonna give up soon..i cant stand it anymore..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110838362085951786?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108380377395686372005-02-14T19:26:00.000-08:002005-02-14T03:26:17.396-08:00happy valentine's day to all!!!<br /><br />haiz.. poor me... alone.. no one to celebrate wif.. haiz..why become like this leh?? haiz.. i am so sad.. wish to celebrate wif u wor.. haiz.. i dunno wat to write le...<br /><br />today received gifts from ying and khai... they are back from hong kong.. i wish to go there.. heheX.. haiz..i dunno wat to say liao.<br /><br />maybe i will be choosing to let u go... its tired for me.. its too tired for me.. i know we cant be together.. but still, i have some hope in it.. but.. i choose not to carry on.. i decide to give up...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110838037739568637?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108302649429624182005-02-13T21:50:00.000-08:002005-02-13T05:50:49.430-08:00why is this so unfair..?? why?? haiz.. why?? why?? why?? haiz..i dunno la... haiz..juz feel like typing this out..sry wor.. :( but i am juz so sad.<br /><br />tml?? tml??<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110830264942962418?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108301603698664452005-02-13T21:33:00.000-08:002005-02-13T05:33:23.700-08:00tml valentine's day..haiz..yet i am here..celebrating alone.. haiz..sianz..<br /><br />my wish is to celebrate wif u.. no matter wat we are now.. couples, stead, frenz or enemies.. i juz wish to celebrate wif u tml.. really...!! haiz..but i dun have the chance... haiz.. i really wan to tell u i like u very much... haiz.. i dunno why.. really wan to have the chance to know u better.. will u give me the chance?? try?? haiz.. but i know this wun be true.. haiz.. how?? u tell me?? how?? haiz.. or shall i juz let u go?? i know in ur mind now.. u wish me to let u go..rite??? haiz.. but.. but.. i cant... i wan u... i dun wan to let go of u...!! u tell me?? hoW?? or shall i wait for u?? haiz.. really like u lots.. really wan to spent the time tml wif u... really.. if can.. i am enough..i dun wan much..i juz wan u to spent this valentine's day wif me.. hao bu hao??<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110830160369866445?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108216512344832302005-02-12T21:55:00.000-08:002005-02-12T05:55:12.346-08:00haiz..today went to my aunt's hse... heheX.. very late then come back..when to yishun to eat... hmm..well..chinese new year was great!! hahax..got a lot of red packets to get!! got lots money!! heheX... haiz...sianz..<br /><br />now i started to like lavender..i dunno why.... i felt great after watching two episodes of lavender!! hehex.. i also like da colour...lavender.. a nice colour...!! hehex.. i wanna watch the whole drama!! muahaha...<br /><br />valentine's day coming...haiz..how?? i will be at home.. no one ask me out..haiz..wat the hell???!! haiz..i am so sadx!!! haiz...<br /><br />love that person and so..i must let him go..haiz.. but let him go liao... my life will become meaningless....how?? sld i let him go or shall i not??? haiz.. love can change a person to be brave.. and so..i also beocome brave..heheX..:) lolx.. hmm..well, valentine's day coming..and..haiz..i cant get him.. :( coz i nv put in effort to jio him.. haiz.. i dunno wat to do..i dunno wat to say... by juz saying i like him..doesnt mean anything coz.. like can be a lot of meaning..haiz.. how?? how?? how?? wat to do?? or maybe we two dun have fate in each other?? haiz..most probably is this reason. :( hmm...sadx... to me.. love is meaningless now.. coz my de other half is nowhere.. i cant find my de other half..and thats him.. hmm.only can be frenz.. at least frenz!! better than ntg.. haiz.. but.. really saying the truth... i dun wan to be juz frenz or good frenz or best frenz.. i wan him to be my de other half..that can make my life more meaningful... but i think this is impossible.. so.. by letting him go is the only way.. but i'm still very confused. shall i?? shall i not.., to let him go? plz help me... :(<br /><br />i am too stress bout doing dnt.. haiz..sianz leh..dnt..wat to do?? so sianz..!! i am too stress out!! (if he's here to help me distress... i will be very happy... haiz.. oh...why am i always toking bout him?? its impossible for us to be together...!!! omg..why am i still thinking of him??)<br /><br />love can change a person to be brave.... ("v")<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110821651234483230?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1108126808975935962005-02-11T21:00:00.000-08:002005-02-11T05:00:08.976-08:00sry for not updating... hahaX..i went malaysia for three days..heheX..paisay paisay..hehex..<br />haiz..went malaysia..happy coz i got red packets.. unhappy..angry.. and frustrated coz of my cousinx..haiz.. they are too!! omg..!! nvm then..and.my hair..!! omg..sux man!! i hate my hair...<br /><br />haiz..today aR.. went seoul garden eat wif my family..haiz..i eat until full like hell..haiz..i hafta walk home..on da way like wan to vomit but cannot vomit like that..so sianz..lolx..ok la..i dunno wat to write liao.. ta~ta!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110812680897593596?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107780303179018522005-02-07T20:44:00.000-08:002005-02-07T04:45:03.180-08:00haiz..today after sch went cut hair..haiz.i so sad..the hair dresser cut so short..haiz.. i went home and cried..haiz..i dunno why i cry.. i think coz of my hair la..its too short man..!! haiz..i now jealous of gals having long hair.. mee now hair like huiying..haiz..!! short...!!!!!! <br /> <br />haiz..nvm la..up till now..many hours past..my eyes still got water.. haiz..too sad liao..haiz.. why like that?? me ugly le.. haiz.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110778030317901852?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107520546791059022005-02-04T20:35:00.000-08:002005-02-04T04:35:46.790-08:00haiz..as usual..i love today..every friday almost!! coz its the earliest time for dismissal..!! hahaX. hmm..but but but..haiz..that slurpy yip ask us to plot graph..omg..i do do do ..until fed up..haiz..luckily got answer..juz copy can liao!! muahaha... haiz.. <br /> <br />i got my maths paper..its unbelievable as i get the top for B class maths.. lolx..hahax.. omg!! i cant believe it!! hahax.. congrats to me!! first time!! hahax.. <br /> <br />haiz..but although i have happy things..but.. haiz..sad moments will always come out from my mind from no where..rite?? haiz.. hmm.. this is hurting me.. maybe not hurting..it makes me think too much..can i juz stop thinkinG? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110752054679105902?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107431712331813342005-02-03T19:54:00.000-08:002005-02-03T03:55:12.333-08:00today sux!! haiz.. today maths and sci Ca..aWWwww.... <br /> <br />i dunno how to do!!! haiz..maths!! tricky qsns!! omg..i die.. haiz..gragh?? how to draw?? when to write this and that?? omg..confirm si liao..haiz.. <br /> <br />sci!! phy!! omg..i am da one and only stupid idiot gundu who write this in physics!! omg..i am lost!! i am stupid..i dunno wats in my mind..am i too stress up?? hmm.. relax man!! but its over!! i cant change back da time!! haiz..chem!??! omg..mr tan say no calculation!!! so i nv memorise formulas..haiz..in the end..got formulas!! omg..how dare he say this!!! omg..somemore is he set da paper!! omg..i hate him!! really cannot stand him le!! omg!! omg..i gonna fail!!! omg..!!! <br /> <br />so fcuked up is da phy!! omg..study so hard yet i still...!! omg..write this kind of nonsense..omg..sadx!! regret aR!!! haiz.sianz.. <br /> <br />i let u go coz i love u.. i dun wan u to be sad..i wan u to be happy... letting u go is da only choice... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110743171233181334?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107430894658901432005-02-03T03:38:00.000-08:002005-02-03T03:41:34.660-08:00<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110743089465890143?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107343162000894712005-02-02T19:16:00.000-08:002005-02-02T03:19:22.000-08:00haiz.. wat to do?? u tell me?? which one?? <br /> <br />shall i...?? <br />shall i not??? <br />i am scared that i made da wrong desicion. <br />hoW?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110734316200089471?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107339232525416882005-02-02T18:10:00.000-08:002005-02-02T02:13:52.526-08:00haiz..today sianz..got geog.. nv study at all..today wake up at 5 to study.. haiz..tired man!! hehex.. haiz..sianz.. tml got comb sci and maths.. cfm fail..especially chem.!! haiz.sianz man! <br /> <br />haiz.. sometimes..to forget someone or somethings may be difficult... haiz.. to forget in juz a few days is impossible.. haiz..sld i or shld'nt i?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110733923252541688?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107246866890844112005-02-01T16:34:00.000-08:002005-02-01T00:34:26.890-08:00haiz..today test!! omg.. SS and mother tongue.. haiz..SS so difficult.dunno wat the qsn toking bout..haiz..its spore..but suddenly got indonesia come out..wat the hell?!?!? mother tongue.?? ok la..ntg difficult.juz da passage only.. haiz.. <br /> <br />hmm..i think very hard liaoz.. haiz.. maybe i sld juz let go... haiz.. coz.. i think... hmm.i also dunno.haiz..juz feel that we cant be together.. its juz my prediction..hope its wrong..hope u are the one who prove me wrong..hopefully... haiz.. i juz dunno why la.. <br /> <br /> -confusion- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110724686689084411?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107179542182643742005-01-31T21:52:00.000-08:002005-01-31T05:52:22.183-08:00haiz.... <br /> <br />maybe let fate lead the way..sometimes maybe we juz cant be together.. hmm.. <br /> <br />time will change everything..in fact is anything.. <br /> <br />haiz. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110717954218264374?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107164791978954752005-01-31T17:46:00.000-08:002005-01-31T01:46:31.980-08:00haiz.. am i making the wrong choice? wrong decision? wrong way of thinking? wrong way of road to take?? am i walking on da wrong path... who am i actually? i also dunno myself.. i felt that i am useless in everything.. wateva i done.. i am a failure!!! haiz.. <br /> <br />omg.today sway.. i am da in charge of da hamper competition..wat the hell was that? i myself also shocked when i heard my name..haiz..i am so !!! omg..shocked..lolx.. <br /> <br />haiz..actually..i dunno wat to say..haiz.. omg..maybe i choosen da wrong path la.. wrong decision..haiz.. haiz..haiz..ntg to say but sigh.... *haiz* plz help me.. <br /> <br />i am so tired of everything... can help me distress myself..haiz... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110716479197895475?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107093864460267722005-01-30T22:04:00.000-08:002005-01-30T06:04:24.460-08:00maybe and thats...haiz.. <br /> <br />ntg to say..only one word..."haiz"... <br /> <br />why does he appear again when i am so happy?? haiz. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110709386446026772?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107093241565830362005-01-30T21:52:00.000-08:002005-01-30T05:54:01.566-08:00why must this happen to me everytime?? <br /> <br />am i so unlucky?? <br /> <br />or i no fate?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110709324156583036?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107071379857022312005-01-30T15:49:00.000-08:002005-01-29T23:49:39.856-08:00sianz.. <br /> <br />sadx..listening to jie kou rite now..haiz..remembering the past...haiz..sadx... <br /> <br />haiz..a hole my heart...who can help me cure?? a big big wound in my heart... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110707137985702231?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107001076922590512005-01-29T20:17:00.000-08:002005-01-29T04:17:56.923-08:00hahaX.. ytd was BLCB's concert..rhapsody three... wahaha!! so happy.. it was a success man!! hahaX.. although it was a hard time practising.. but hahaX.. it was worth it.. haha..hehex.. hmm.. <br /> <br />well, although i can see u every moment ytd.. but i still cant open my mouth to tell u that i... <br /> <br />haiz..well, maybe its not time yet la..haiz..maybe we juz cant be together bah.. haiz.. <br /> <br />i really like u lots sia... how to tell u?? keeping in my heart makes me feel very uncomfortable..!!! how?? u tell me wat to do?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110700107692259051?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1107069396815138442005-01-29T15:16:00.000-08:002005-01-29T23:16:36.816-08:00hihi.. its me!! hahaX..got time to write blog..heheX.. me at yan's hse.. heheX..haiz.. sianz//nowadays cannot online much..coz got exams..haiz... <br /> <br />hmm..love?? wat is love actually? haiz.. i wanna tell u... hmm..realy like u... haiz.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110706939681513844?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106826423510391002005-01-27T19:46:00.000-08:002005-01-27T03:47:03.510-08:00haiz.sianz.why always so sianz.. haiz..wat happen to me actually?? haiz..i no time to type wat i done today..i juz to update my blog..haiz. coz i doing my project..and i got test tml..and!! tml is BLCB's concert!! yeah! looking forward to.. <br /> <br />ok..gtg le..haiz.. <br /> <br />up till now.. i still dun dare to tell him.. <br /> <br />[stresS] <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110682642351039100?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106657987246937872005-01-25T21:00:00.000-08:002005-01-25T04:59:47.246-08:00sianz aR!! today lesson so late finish..haiz.. first day of lesson on tues kana scold..i so sad..hahaX.i forgot to do hmwrk.. haiz.sianz ar.. mrs chan keep toking..ah ya!! sianz.. hmm.then ish english..haiz..must do hmwrk liao lor..every hmwrk counted in ca marks de..wtf!! haiz.sianz.. must work hard..hehex.. then is combined humans again..go com lab..haiz.. sianz.. we do net surfing then print..hahaX..then is pe..hahaX.. throw javaline!! lolx..omg!! hahaX.. i scared throwing that de..coz too heavy liao..hand no muscles..!! haha..wah lau.. da boys aR!! buay tahan..haiz.. i throw liao then they shout dunno wat sia..say i can go olympic..lolx..shit!! all shit...lolx.. always make fun of me de..wah lau..haiz..sianz..recess i saw him again..muahaha..lolx..i really dun dare to tell him lor..remain as fren better.. haiz..so sad...then is mother tongue.. we do da workbook..hehex..me and karwen infrared rinetones wif each other..hahaX.. lolx..funz..!! :) then is cme.. tok bout life sci..lolx..then break..then is dnt!! haiz..ms haznita nv come..but mr leow(my dad) got come..haiz..hehex.. omg..dnt really stress me up lor..sianz.. haiz..then this week got ca..its very busy for me..and i got band somemore..its no time for me to stayd next day exams..and.. no time for me to do my dnt..!! <br /> <br />hmm.sianz.love aR..!! omg..wat is love..?? i keep asking coz i dunno wat is love..who can tell me?? who can make me feel love?? wat is love? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110665798724693787?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106567797328009962005-01-24T19:55:00.000-08:002005-01-24T03:56:37.330-08:00sianz..dnt how to do? <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110656779732800996?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106567347027095742005-01-24T19:48:00.000-08:002005-01-24T03:49:07.026-08:00haiz..sianz aR..today go sch again!! argh..hmm..well..ntg much nor..as usual go sch...hehex.. first period is reading newspaper..hmm.me kinda wanna sleep when reading..haiz..as it was early in da morning..feeling tired..hehex.. hmm..then is maths..omg..sista nv come today...hmm..hafta sit wif ian alone..oh..:( hahax.. lolx..jkjk.. hmm.then combined humans..haiz.mr chan again..haiz..always tok.. then wah lau.chem!!! i hate chem!! i wan ms wai!!!! haiz.he teach i blur liao.. if ms wai aR.. she explained until very clear de..haiz.. hmm.. then recess.. i saw him again!! hahax.. hmm..well..maybe i sldnt tell him.. sld juz leave this in my heart.. well?? wat u think? then is LE.. then mother tongue..then assemly..tok bout stress..hm.. indeed i am stress...!! very stress!!! <br /> <br />haiz..love!! wat is love??? love? love? where is love? kinda getting love sick soon..omg..wat happen? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110656734702709574?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106476330001014442005-01-23T18:32:00.000-08:002005-01-23T02:32:10.003-08:00happy birthday to me!!! hahaX..today is my bday!! muahaha..but sad la..haiz..none of my frenz go out wif me to celebrate... haiz..why?? omg..so sadx sia..in da end i went out wif my family..haiz... so sadx.. hmm..sianz.. i juz woke up..hahaX.. i was so tired... went to chinatown today...omg..so many ppl there..haiz..especially da seionr citizens..omg..say excuse me liao... dunno how to listen de..omg.. so fcuked up man!! haiz... hmm..ntg much la..this yr's bday not so happy bout it la..haiz..due to da ca week... and no ppl wanna go out wif me.. sianz..haiz.. <br /> <br />omg..hmm..wanna kow my bday wish..? hm..its..?? i wan him to be mine...!! haiz.. haiz..sadx. <br /> <br />happy bday to me once again. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110647633000101444?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106397741350537782005-01-22T20:42:00.000-08:002005-01-22T04:42:21.350-08:00haiz..today band ar.. start at 9.. ends at 5..omg..shit man!! haiz..sianz nor..hahaX..i gotta present fm karling, jos and huiying..hehex..they bought a soft toy..which i dunno it can works de..i thought it was juz a radio soft toy..but i really works like a real radio..omg.. if karling nv tell me..i still dunno...hehex.. thanks wor!! hahaX..haiz..early in da morning got combined nor..play play play until 11 plus am...hehex..bo bian la..got concert ma...heheX..have to rehearse..heheX.. haiz.. hmm.. today saw him liao...hahaX.. i dunno whether he knows or not..haiz..sianz.. hehex.. omg..i cant control myself..am i crazy or wat??? haiz.. <br /> <br />tml is my bday!! happy bday to me.. lolx..haiz..my bday no ppl wanna go out wif me..haiz..sianz.. this is da only year that i spent my bday alone..haiz..so sadx wor..haiz..i thought can celebrate wif u..haiz.. but in da end..u like that treat me..omg..its unfair~!!! haiz..why i still thinking of him when i have happy moments to think of..why think of sad moments..?? omg... haiz.. painful memories... i cant forget...!!! hoW?? do i need someone to cure for mE?? hmm....?? hmm..why i tok to him i feel so happy..?? why i see him my heart was beating so fast?? why i keep looking at him when i got ntg to do...?? am i falling in lovE?? wat is love? is this lovE? <br /> <br />love...love..love... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110639774135053778?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106311528248132352005-01-21T20:45:00.000-08:002005-01-21T04:45:28.246-08:00haiz..today actually celebrete my early bday wif erzi, yan, edwin and xq.. but xp nv reply..yan suddenly cannot go..haiz..then only left three of us..haiz.. cancel off better..so little ppl..how to celebrate..?? haiz.. this year's bday i most sianz..haiz..no one celebrate wif me.. ppl who promised tyo celebrate wif me all gone!!! haiz.. sianz aR.. the at last i went clementi wif my mum and sis.. but new year's stuff..haiz.bo bian..no chioce.. no bf to go out wif.. no frenz to celebrate bday wif..haiz.. the life of a person who is single is so damm sianz.. haiz.. why guys are so untrustful?? haiz.. promise ppl then nv do it de..haiz.. in the end da same thing happen..haiz.. <br /> <br />love is complicated...i am happy coz i have forgotten u 90%... but suddenly u 'popped' out.. and u let me think of da past and make me cry...sob..sad.. <br /> <br />i'm trying not to have feelings on anyone..but i cant... i cant control my heart liao... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110631152824813235?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106224512120130622005-01-20T20:35:00.000-08:002005-01-20T04:35:12.120-08:00haiz..so sianz.. so wat we start sch at 805.. haiz..it is still da same..haiz..sianz aR.. haiz..i really cant stand mr tan teaching..omg..i cant understand a single thing...!! i gonna fail my chem soon... :) i gonna find ms wai for help!!! hehex.. haiz..sianz ar.. sch sux..haiz./. today went sch..haiz..so sad.. i keep thinking bout da past..haiz..wat can make me dun think of da past leh?? haiz.. so sad.. so depressed..i whole day nv smile..until bout da afternoon.. all da smile is all fake.. i juz joke ard to make myself more happy only noR.. haiz..sadx thing.. haiz.. <br /> <br />hmm..does love sounds so complicated?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110622451212013062?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106138888776023842005-01-19T20:47:00.000-08:002005-01-19T04:48:08.776-08:00omg..haiz..i really feel that all these while u are not treating me as ur stead at that time when we are going steady..haiz..frenster nv write me tstiomonial de..haiz..then ur new one leh..got write testimonial de..wat the fuck?? i kow if u see this i wan to hoot me..hoot la!! i nto scared lor..wah lau..u treated me so unfairly from de others..i already very nice liao lor..i nv say any word leh..!!! plz lor..if u dun wan me earlier rite..juz say la..rather than u that time then say..make so like fcuk..fuck lor!!! haiz..wah lau..haiz.. my bday coming u suddenly from no where popped up..haiz..i got ntg to say liao loR...fcuk sia!!! <br /> <br /> dun ever appear again. plz..last time i seeing u is today on msn.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110613888877602384?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106136494452432252005-01-19T20:08:00.000-08:002005-01-19T04:08:14.453-08:00omg..who tell him de?? haiz..how am i going to face him in band?? omg..hahax..hope he doesnt know..haiz..so sadx..hmm..i decide to tell him..haiz..but hoW?? how sld i start?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110613649445243225?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1106039770133711432005-01-18T17:15:00.000-08:002005-01-18T01:16:10.133-08:00hahax..today tues..hmm..let me think got wat leh..hehex.. hmm..today first period is history..omg.. why da vice principle wanna us to group like that?? troublesome la..!! haiz..then is english.haiz..so sianz.. debate debate..juz stop it la..haiz.. then is combined humans..go com lab..haiz..again he toking nonsense..when on earth is he going to stop thiS?? haiz.. at least he is better than my tan!! :) hahax.. then is PE... mr bong always dunno go where de..haiz.. always waited for him..then he nv turn up..haiz..two times liao leh..haiz..nvm la.sianz.. hehex..recess!! hahaX.. i saw him again.. omg.. i think i really in love wif him liao loR.. wah lau..haiz.. but he's younger than me..hehex.. how?? i scared he minds bout me lor.. but age doesnt matter..hehex.. but this is wat i think..not him..!! haiz.. how leh?? sld i confess?? i think better not.. juz keep it in my heart...rite?? haiz.sianz.then cme..then mother tongue..then dnt.. go com lab again..heheX..do research..haiz..sian aR..hahax.. haiz.. <br /> <br />haiz..love is complicated...why?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110603977013371143?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105955399203641862005-01-17T17:50:00.000-08:002005-01-17T01:49:59.203-08:00i saw him again in da canteen today... am i falling in love wif him?/ haiz..why my heart suddenly beat so fast when i see him?? why?? is that true?? thats love? admirE? like? haiz.. confused la.. <br /> <br />haiyo..today da chem spa.. i prepare to fail!!! i dunno how to do..!! muahaha.. <br /> <br />hmm..i think i am in love wif him.. how?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110595539920364186?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105868545832180102005-01-16T17:42:00.000-08:002005-01-16T01:42:25.833-08:00haiz.. sian aR.. today early in da morning go library find info on dnt.. haiz..sian aR.. cannot find de.. haiz.. hmm..then later met my mum and sis.. go eat, shopping then walk walk..hahax.. <br /> <br />hmm..haiz..how come i keep thinking of him...?? why i keep msging him??? how come?? am i ....???? omg.. cant be true.. why?? wat happen?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110586854583218010?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105868014221345622005-01-16T17:30:00.000-08:002005-01-16T01:33:34.220-08:00haiz..tpday went library search for info.. omg.. damm sian de loR..lolx.. hahax.. haiz.. met my mum and sis... then go shopping..eat..walk.. ya.. haiz.. <br /> <br />omg.. i miss him... wat happen to mE?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110586801422134562?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105799235329493392005-01-15T22:27:00.000-08:002005-01-15T06:27:15.330-08:00haiz..sianz aR.. hehex..today sat.. still needa go sch.haiz.. band nor..again band..haiz.. i still have to stay back to play for da minister to come for da bursary thingy.. sian ar..!! hehex.. hmm.. so envy for those getting da award de.. haiz... they are so good... haiz.. remember da days when i got da bursary every year in pri sch.. not not in sec sch.not even one!! haiz.. hehex.. haiz.. <br /> <br />u know hohx.. i started to fall in love wif a guy.. omg.. how?? this cant be true...!!! omg... how?? i dun wan this to happen!!! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110579923532949339?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105441202142966772005-01-11T19:00:00.000-08:002005-01-11T03:00:02.143-08:00go la go la..!! do wateva u wan la.. i confirm that this is not the real reason.. i bet!!! juz go la.. juz dun appear infront of me again..not even once..!! i jzu hate u....!!!!!!!! go go go...!!!!!!!! how can u delete me in frenster.. plz lor.. i did ntg wrong.. u dun need to try to hate me or wateva or u dun wan me then delete me in frenster.. way u said.. u still regardr me as ur fren.. plz hohx.. delete me in frenster for ??? wat?? u tell me?? wat la?? juz fuck off***!! i am pissed off...!! fucked up!!!! <br />juz go away!!! i will not regard u as my fren anymore..juz shoo!!! away!!!! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110544120214296677?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105440194749385622005-01-11T18:43:00.000-08:002005-01-11T02:43:14.750-08:00muahaha.. today so excited bout da lunch buffet..hehex..looking forward sia.. my heart was pounding so fast sia.. heheX.. <br /> <br />today early in da morning got workshop bout personal grooming... hmm.. wat to use when having our buffet... hmm.. omg.. so many cultleries sia.. haiz.. hahaX..then after that is da wat to wear... like slim wear wat kind fat wera wat kind like that noR.. hmm..then recess liao hahaX.. i nv eat anything coz i save it for my buffet later.. heheX.. then after that is bout our positive attitude and thinking.. hmm.. how to think and behave positively.. maybe?? i dunno how to say this la.. haiyo!! nvm.. then ish da make-up work shop..hehex.. wahZ.. every gal make up liao so chio.. heheX..envy them.. lolx.. hmm..then we changed our dinning clothes liao lor..hmm.. everyone wear so casual... especially da guys.. haiz.. t shirt and jeans.. omg.. if got tell earlier i also wear jeans noR.. but too bad.. i decided to wear skirt liao.. haiz..nvm la.. look nice on me?? hahax.. bhb..~~~ <br /> <br />hmm..hahax.. we reached da hotel bout 12 plus?? i forget.. hmm.then we went up stairs to have our lunch buffet.. haiz.. we haven pick our partners then teachers anyhow pair us..haiz.. so sad.. cannot sit wif a guy that i close wif la.. i mean i know him very well then we are close friends whom we know each other very long liao.. haiz.. at first i sit wif jos.. then changed place.. then changed again.. so troublesome!! haiz..nvm la.. i come here to have lunch... not to blame others on da sitting arrangement...hahax.. wahZ.. me and yong peng keep taking food.. hehex.. i always ask him not to waste money..hehex.. coz we pay de.. lolx.. hahax.. then i keep asking huiying faster eat or drink finish coz i taking another course.. hehex.. lolx.. wahz.!! da desserts so creamy..!! omg.. i full with that liao..haiz.. da main course like very simple sia.. ntg special de.. so sad.,..cant eat nice food.. haiz... hehehX.. lolx.. haiz.. after all.. da food ok la.. i eat not much coz like very sianz leh.. all da same food de.. i eat and eat liao da same.. not special..hehex.. bout 230 we left da restaurant liao.. haiz.. a bit full only la.. haiz.. nvm la.. nv waste much money can liao. <br /> <br />haiz.. why i still thinking of him...?? hmm.. da bus which travel got passby PS.. hmm..thats where me and him always go de.. haiz.. i miss the time..haiz.. i am still thinking of him.. why cant i juz forget him leh?? am i really fall in love wif him until so deep that i cant forget him?? why???? why?? whyt did such thing to me??? why must it happen to me?? i so sadx.. haiz... why why why?? haiz.. after my o level... would u still remember me ma?? would u jio me back??? would u?? i think after ur n level, u find another gal liao lor... haiz.. u confirm dun wan me de la.. rite?? haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. why?? why?? why?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110544019474938562?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105351800954978242005-01-09T18:01:00.000-08:002005-01-10T02:10:00.956-08:00hahaX..today went out wif jiawen.. then later go meet karling.. <br /> <br />hmm..today went to orchard wif jiawen.. heheX. she dyed her hair liao.. so nice wor.. i wan that colour.. but cannot la.. later kana caught.. haiz.. she changed her hair style liao.. quite chio actually.. hahax.. we go walk walk..then go take neoprint..heheX.. deco until like crazy..lolx.. hahaX.. hmm... then we tired liao go sit sit..heheX.lolx.. hmm.. sit until four o clock..then wanna go back liao.. haiz.. i spent such a short time wif her.. haiz.. too bad... i long long time then can meet her once or twice.. hahaX.. miss all my band seniors!!! haiz... heheX.. tahan four more months then i graduate le.. muahaha.. i hate band lots..!!! really hate it!! haiz.. da concert..haiz.. no one wanna buy tickets.. omg.. somemore must sell all!! siao ar.. haiz.. no one wanna watch means no one wanna watch lor.. haiz.. wats the big deal leh?? haiz.. nvm la.. juz continue to tahan.. <br /> <br />hmm..later bout five plus i meet karling at imm.. hahaX.. we go here go there.. buy clothes for da stupid dinner entiqutte... haiz.. must wear until so formal.. haiz.. wat dress..?? lolx.. haiz.. then da shoes also another problem.. haiz.. go here go there.. then finally found da shoes we wan!! lolx.. hahaX.. then go went back home so tired.. hahaX.. we found that thters's a new bus service 181... hmm.. wonder go where de.. hahaX.. da 243G go far away liao.. change until so far.. have to walk like hel next time le.. haiz.. hmm.. then hohx.. we board bus liao.. then smell got vomit..haiz.. so sway ar.. somemore da vomit is not long ago one.. coz da floor still a bit wet!! hehex.. <br /> <br />haiz.. well.. i have tried not to think of u so much.. haiz.. but really cant?? haiz.. wat happen to me?? i dun wan to be sad all da time... i wan to be the real me.. not the sad side of me... why why why?? why must this thing happen to me?? why my seniors wun happen this? why?? haiz.. nvm la.. wat is happen is already happen... wat to do?? i cant force u to come back to me coz u dun love me anymore... maybe i sld juz try to find others... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110535180095497824?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105102270696285622005-01-07T04:49:00.000-08:002005-01-07T04:51:10.696-08:00returning of da past?? issit possible?? haiz.. nvm la.. treat me as i nv ask this.. forget it... i am tired of this le.. i needa someone who really cares bout me...!!! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110510227069628562?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1105101855987587172005-01-07T03:54:00.000-08:002005-01-07T04:44:15.986-08:00-6-01-05- <br /> <br />haiz.. its a hard day for me.. thrus... stay back until so late... until 335..haiz..so late.. hmm.. i really miss him.. haiz.. i dunno why this few days..especially ytd and today.. call him he like heck care me..haiz.so sadx.. nvm la.. haiz.. <br /> <br />at nite..haiz.he called me..haiz.. i was asking him bout wat i have been thinking bout these few days and its i wonder does he still loves me?? haiz.. finally i knew the answer.. its no..!! NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO.i dun wan these to happen to me.. i am a 'xin fu' the gal..why become like this?? haiz..ok.. concentrate on n level..okok.. fine.. i thought this is juz an excuse coz if the other party wun mind being neglected.. that is nvm de..haiz.. but i also think that its true.. haiz.. u sld know. i am quite an undertstanding person..hmm..wat u say i think its true.. but i cant believe totally... as i dun trust guys so much..haiz.. i have been trusting u so much.,. but yet u treat me like that..haiz.. at first i think we sldnt patch..haiz.. i regret...i really regret.. i thought u are an understaning guy..but yet.. selfish.. only think bout urself.. but wat u said to me..i dun think u are selfish..coz i know u got exams.. me too!!! ok? not only u.. haiz.. ok?? haiz.. i think u ar thinking that mayb like that will make me study better coz i will not think so much.. u are wrong!! i am telling u this.. coz...if u nv say wanna 'break', it make me feel more comfortable.. can study well.. now u told me this.. its affecting me too much.. coz it make me feel sad... i have been trying to keep myself happy today.. i am acting it..!! i am tired.. i dun wanna act.. i wan da real me... de lee wee my frenz know is gone!!!!!! dead..!!!! haiz.. really cant do this.. how can i forget this?? love u so much liao.. u treat me like this.. haiz.. all excuses!!! *jie kou*!!!!!! haiz... falling in love wif u is wrong in da first place.. it will hurt me deeply... deeply..really.. i really cant live without u.. haiz.. why u must did this to me?? why not we juz go back to da past and i know its impossible.. once its over.. its very difficult to get back together, if u still love me, then thats another thing... haiz... nothing is perfect... no one is perfect.. everything is possible and impossible.. <br /> <br />* u really hurt me lots and u left a wound in my heart.. and u put salt in my heart and make it worsen...* <br /> <br />-7-01-05- <br /> <br />today..its a tiring day... fri..although can go back early.. but!! i got band aR!! so sway..haiz.. today lesson..phy becoming sianz.. but i can take it.. i needa study and prepare for my 'o's..haiz.. band aR... keep playing all those songs. play until i sian liao.hahax..btw, i am late today for band..hahaX..lolx.. haiz.. still gotta mood to laugh meh? haiz.. wanna cry when i reach sch.. when i was having my reading period..USSR.. haiz.. i kept thinking of wat u said ytd...haiz.. phy lesson i also like sian sian de.. really no mood to listen to mr yip toking.. haiz.. thats why i kana stand in class.. haiz..sianz aR.. why like this.. haiz..i know this is tough for me.. and i think for u its not a tough one.. coz u juz wanna concentrate and u have totally forget bout me le... i know.. i am sure of that.. rite? am i rite to say that?? haiz.. all u gave.. most of the gals will think that this is an excuse..even me also thinks that..haiz.. but i really dun wan to think that this is true..haiz.. i am sure that u are really wanna study.. haiz.. for me?? haiz.. can live one day then live lor.. haiz.. wat to do?? i dun have u liao.. haiz.. wo de xin hao tong ar... hurts me very much...!!! i know i am a tough person.. easy to withstand emtional thingys.. haiz.. but this time its not!! the lee wee my frenz know is gone!!!!! dead!!!! gone!!GONE!!!!!! i am the fake one..!!!! haiz... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110510185598758717?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1104738126092570712005-01-02T15:41:00.000-08:002005-01-02T23:42:06.093-08:00wahZ..!!! first day of school...muahaha... haiz..so sianz.. hmm..still the same..morning wake up.. then tie hair wear shoes go school..as usual go sch wif eng.. hmm..when reach school..wah!! almost late!!! 5 more mins...hahax...heng aR!!!! heheZ..we gotta new vice-priniciple.. hehex.. <br /> <br />hmm..then go back class...haiz..actually can change seat..haiz.. but in the end..ms wee came inside.. i thought she juz wanna see us then say something then go.. wah.. haiz..she's our form teacher again..wahz!!! hmm.. sianz aR!!!! hahaX.. haiz..phy still same teacher lor..mr yip...cme also him aR.. later cme change to phy again..juz like last year 3e7..haiz..hmm..chem change teacher..more sianz..mr tan boon hock!! omg!! he teach sometimes wrong info.. omg..how to pass aR?? haiyo!!! oh ya!! and maths... why must separate class leh?? haiz.all the clever ones in best class.. the okok one one class.. all stupid ones one class..wtf!!!! haiz..i confirm last class de..haiz..die liao...!! haiz.. haiz...haiz...combined humans also change..!! haiz..why ms azlin??? omg..she teach like shit..so biased de teacher..haiz.how to pass??? haiz.. omg..geog mrs chan know how to teach meh?? hahax..i see her for history i already very sian liao..wah..somemore geog is her..i confirm die in her hands.. hmm..i must work hard...really really hard!! <br /> <br />hmm..promise myself to go home rite after school and study... do hmwrk then revise.. then sleep..no more jurong point!!! no more going out often...!! work hard!! lolx..as if... hahaX.. i will make it real!! :) <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110473812609257071?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1104588140151363942005-01-01T22:02:00.000-08:002005-01-01T06:02:20.153-08:00<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110458814015136394?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1104587213643722922005-01-01T21:46:00.000-08:002005-01-01T05:46:53.643-08:00hahaX..first day of 2005..happy new year!! <br /> <br />haiz..today so sway woR..lolx.. sick until nearly fainted..lolx.. today walk walk walk until my vision blur blur then nearly collasped.. haiz.. today actually go out buy new year clothes de..haiz..but me..haiz..argh..!!! so sianz at home..but good nor..coz i can rest..hehex.. <br /> <br />hmm..haiz.. i tio love sick liao.. cannot live without him le.. willson!! got see this ma.. i cannot live without u liao la.. haiyo! lolx... u very important to me liao..hehex..,muahaha. like very evil.. :) hahaX. i love u till eternity... :) muackz muackz.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110458721364372292?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1104505858821211752004-12-31T23:10:00.000-08:002004-12-31T07:10:58.820-08:00hahaX.happy new year!!!!! 2005~~ <br /> <br />-27-12-04- <br />hmm..today erzi, his bro, yan, her sis, mine sis and me..went seoul garden eat..heheX.. though i i know its a waste of money..heheX...but good lehx.. heheX..we ate a lot of things..heheX.. we like very ku-ku like that..heheX.. take and take..heheX.. cook and cook..until black black also cook..hahaX..then throw..hahaX..waste food..heheX.. but nvm la..who cares..buffet woR..heheX..haiz.. sianz..we from 1130 eat until 330...hahaX.. after all, we ate until we full full liao then we separated.... heheX.. nothing else. i still thinking of him... <br /> <br />-28-12-04 <br />we patched already.. :) hahaX. i so happy.. hahaX.. and i am angry also.. haiz... all are her fault..haiz.. make us until like that.. issit that she wanna us to break up ma?? haiz.. been thru all those difficulties.. we finally patched.. :) muahaha.. i love ya! <br /> <br />-31-12-04- <br />hmm..today i went his hse.. watched the chukey..hahaX.. not scary...hmm.. haiz... go his hse for awhile.. bout three hrs then go home..so sad..i thought can go out..but cannot..haiz.. then went home liao noR..hehex.. haiz.. although time has shorten until 3 hrs.. hahax.. but i still have a great time wif him.. :) i hope we can last till very very long long..heheX..lol.. i dunno wat i toking bout..heheX.. hmm.wat else huh?? oh ya!! to all my fellow frenz.. all whom i know.. happy new year to all!!! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110450585882121175?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1104064728760684522004-12-26T20:39:00.000-08:002004-12-26T04:38:48.760-08:00hmm..today went my aunt hse..hahaX..then 5 something came back.. haiz.. sianz aR!!!! <br /> <br />i am envy those who have all that i want... they are juz to xing fu!!! lucky!! ya!! <br /> <br />haiz. i am sadx. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110406472876068452?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1103983767513997452004-12-25T22:09:00.000-08:002004-12-25T06:09:27.513-08:00hohoho.. merry xmas to everyone!! <br /> <br />-25-12-04- <br />hmm..today went out wif yong shen..hahaX..we two very funny.. we dunno where to go..hahaX.. we went bugis eat.. then walk walk.. hahaX..then go mrt station..hahaX..we keep standing there..thinking of where to go..lolx..so funny.. heheX.. hehex.. finally.. we have no idea where to go and we went back home..hahaX.. i know thats sad nor..coz xmas so early go home.. but we dunno where to go..hahaX..must blame spore why too small..ritE?? muahaha! <br /> <br />-24-12-04- <br />hmm..lolx.. i got ntg to do rite now..haiz.. actually xmas can celebrate wif........ haiz..but he... haiz... so sad.. but i feel angry wif him..haiz..also no use le..haiz..hmm... xmas eve..haiz.. so sianz...only erzi, yan, me and my sis go out..haiz.. if he is still... i would have go out wif him..haiz..ddun tok bout him la.. tok bout him i wan to kill him.. really gonna slap him..haiz..so sadx.. nvm.. <br /> <br />ok... ntg to write.. once again.. merry xmas!!! <br />thats all folks! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110398376751399745?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1103721108715873042004-12-22T21:12:00.000-08:002004-12-22T05:11:48.716-08:00hahaX..after all these stupid jie kou and sadness.. i had overcome them and be happy le!! muahaha!! hahaX.. so shiok aR!! the feeling.. long time nv so happy before..like real.. hahax..hehex.. <br /> <br />hmm..now i juz wan to have peace and quiet.. hahaX.. hmm..maybe dun think too much bout all these.. juz prepare for next year's o level..thats all!! hahaX..dun care bout other thingys..hahax.. yeah!! heheX.. <br /> <br />today erzi call ma say his wallet missing.. omg.. so worried sia..lolx.. hahax..hahax..finally got ppl return him,.. phew!!! :D happy for him.. as xmas eve can go out together..lolx!! hehex..yeah!! <br /> <br />haiz.. ntg much lor..haiz. be happy always! lolx. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110372110871587304?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1103701007581817282004-12-21T23:33:00.000-08:002004-12-21T23:36:47.580-08:00dun love me then dun be wif me.. i hate that!! i am not a doll that let u play.. and throw it away when u dun wanna play... hmm.. cant forget memories or cant forget her.. coz in the memories.. got her!!! if u cant forget her.. that means u cant forget the memories.. simple as that.. dun give me excuses... haiz.. ok.. finally know the answer.. i know this day will happen... i swear i will not like someone anymore.. i hate that feeling.. i hate that!! i hate everything.. i juz hate it after this incident...!! i hate you!!!!! hate u forever!!! i will remember u wat u did to me.. <br /> <br />:) single is still the best.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110370100758181728?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1103631410874740442004-12-21T20:16:00.000-08:002004-12-21T04:16:50.873-08:00u are really making me worried, sad and angry.. i dunno wats wrong wif u.. i did ntg wrong.. u treat me like this.. i really cannot stand this...!!!!! i juz hope that u can tell me why we cant contact wif each other for few days... haiz.. juz tell me!! is this mean silent break?!?!? huh? <br /> <br /> <br />*confused*sad*angry*worried* <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110363141087474044?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1103536883458454522004-12-20T18:00:00.000-08:002004-12-20T02:01:23.456-08:00haiz... i was sad and angry again..haiz.. ok la.. we patch liao..but then...now wat?? haiz.. msged me tell me not to contact each other for few days... wat is this?? patch is patch liao... break is break lor.... i dunno wat u wan and wat u think lor.. maybe to u.. i may not love u.. but in my heart.. i really do love u.. haiz... u sld know, gals dun always say those mushy mushy thingys... haiz.. so do i.. i will feel very paisay when i say those thingys...haiz.. i really dunno wat u think la..maybe we sld separate better la..like that we cant do anything de loR... i reallly dunno wat u wan lor.. u wan her back juz go la.. haiz.. hmm.. i really ntg to say... she is more important than me la..rite? haiz.. then i also can say 'he' is more important than me...haiz.. <br />u say this is unfair to me..ya.. correct..this is unfair to me... in the end??? still the same!!!! this is unfair to me too!!! why???? haiz.. i knew that u will say like this de loR.. haiz.. since u still love her...why not u juz go back to her side... juz dun return to me...!!! i am very very angry at u... <br />better disappear before it is too late!!! and!!! xmas eve.. i might not be going out wif u.. its too i dunno how to say.. like that already.. so i dun think there's not much different if we going or not going out loR... i rather go out wif my frenz.. then having to hear some bad news on that day.. as well as on xmas day itself!!! really!! i am serious... <br />all that u say are all your jie kou only!!! i hope that wat u say.. u will think of the concequences... on u, me and her... memories?? if u dun think of those memories.. there's no such thing happening to us rite now...!!!! memories..?? i also have memories... how come i am not the one who say wan to break?? huh?? u tell me?? everyone has memories lor.. everyone will forget their memories sooner or later de lor... haiz.. u know.. last few days.. one of my good fren say that she is very envy of me.. that i had such a good bf.. but now?? i am the one who envy her ok?? its u who make me feel this way.... haiz... i dunno wat to say la... haiz.. hahaX.. memories?? all shit!!!! memories?? sooner or later i will be crazy about the word--'MEMORIES'... i am telling u this...!!! hahaX.. i saw the word i will laugh until mad..hahax.. memories?? hahax.. i give u one last chance.. u either choose one of us... if not.. i will end this relationship myself before it will get worse.. and i will not get so upset about this... <br />all are jie kou!!!!!! all shit!!!!!!!!!!!! <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110353688345845452?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1103602257124218892004-12-20T12:10:00.000-08:002004-12-20T20:10:57.123-08:00haiz... i like that i also ntg to say le.. <br /> <br />i promise not to bother u le.. today is the last time in msn i bother u liao.. haiz.. so.. ok loR.. from today onwards.. we separate... <br /> <br />fianl answer...!!!!!!!!!!!! <br /> <br />memories are killers....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110360225712421889?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1103423916876099772004-12-18T10:37:00.000-08:002004-12-18T18:38:36.876-08:00haiz..okok loR.. u say like that i also cant do anything... i really dunno wat to say liao loR... <br /> <br />really nothing... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110342391687609977?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1102597921077641102004-12-09T21:11:00.000-08:002004-12-09T05:12:01.076-08:00haiz..so sianz..today band until 5pm...haiz.sianz aR.!! wah..today mrs chee test one by one sia..omg..haiz..i so sad... i dunno how to play..lolx..maybe bahx..or my finger too slow..or my reading is bad..haiz...haiz..so sianz.hm..then we gt combined the winter..haiz..hmm..i rather wan the foxfire than the winter song.,.hahaX..winter so many running notes..hmm.haiz..dun care la..haiya!!! band band band..everytime say liao my mood changes..lolx..ok.. dun say band le..hahaX.. <br /> <br />hmm..haiz.sianz aR.. next week got three days gt band..i mean something like sectional?? maybe..omg.three days lehx..!! hahax..haiz..sianz aR....haiz.haiz.. no comments. <br /> <br />:D <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110259792107764110?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1102512949705489002004-12-08T21:35:00.000-08:002004-12-08T05:35:49.706-08:00hmm.. ok.i decide not to work le..hahaX.. so late le then find job..and exams coming neat year..hahahX.. <br /> <br />ok la..the work thingy put aside ok? i dun wan to say anymore..haiz..hahaX. <br /> <br />haiz.. i hope hohx.. our relationship can be last till until we die.haiz.ok la.. even though sometimes got some misunderstanding..but we will not quarral over small matters rite? muahaha.. well.. we are both relax ppl! lolx.. hehex.. sry.i toking rubbish..haiz..hahaX.lolx.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110251294970548900?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1102303738037830252004-12-05T11:27:00.000-08:002004-12-05T19:28:58.036-08:00haiz haiz haiz... maybe give u time to cool down. :D <br /> <br />fine! i am relax person...! :) <br /> <br />gtg. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110230373803783025?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1102303245973791682004-12-05T11:21:00.000-08:002004-12-05T19:20:45.973-08:00omg... haiz... wat happen siA?? why like that?? haiz haiz haiz... <br /> <br />half feel like working...half dun feel like working...haiz..haiz.. got this chance to go and work..haiz...die liao loR..die die die... know why i suddenly wan to work?? coz... its in suntec city... somemore i know u are working there..so u get it?? why i wan to work?? so that sometime when i have break or something..or i reach there early..i can see u!! omg..maybe this is a stupid excuse..but i purposely wan to work de..haiz.. coz i juz wan to see u.. a while also can.. few seconds also can...haiz... i dunno la..haiz.. this sucks... <br /> <br />why why why??? why why why?? omg.. i so damm sadx... sobx sobx. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110230324597379168?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1101477060277369782004-11-26T21:50:00.000-08:002004-11-26T05:51:00.276-08:00hmm..today so sianz... hahaX... hai.z.yesterday got band..haiz.. <br /> <br />yesterday woR..cca open hse in blss..lolx..so little ppl came to blss..haiz..hmm.but i saw a lot of pioneer pri students going boon lay!! thats was great!! hahaX..hmm..ytd aR..haiz..afternoon raining..not so many ppl came noR..haiz..so sadx..then later i got band practice..sectional..hahaX..then see few ppl walking here and there..hahaX..i bet is they are seeking for shelter..not to come blss de la..lolx...hmm..band camp coming..haiz..i so scared..lolx..ytd got small meeting for wat to bring for camp things..hahaX..my grp only have four ppl...lolx..so pathetic...hahaX..sianz aR..i so amused by other grps as they have so many ppl..and..my grp lehx..haiz..the ppl are not sporting...so sianz de ppl..then..only got four ppl..so sianz..and i am the only chinese gal...haiz..so sadx..i wonder how i will survive.. <br /> <br />haiz..camp coming..omg... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110147706027736978?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1101217184219730522004-11-23T21:40:00.000-08:002004-11-23T05:39:44.220-08:00so sianz aR..hmm..today early in the morning..go band..haiz..band again..really so sianz...wahZ..today wait for the key very long aR...haiz...hahaX..nvm la..can waste time..haiz..time-table say today mr tan's coming..haiz..but no one came..haiz..sectional until 1145 ard there la..then got camp booklet to go thru..haiz..so sianz..haiz..band camp coming soon..omg..there are so many malay ppl..haiz..espeacially gals noR..wah lau..later bathing time confirm snatch place to bath de..haiz..must chiong aR...hahaX..haiz..sianz aR...wahZ.. <br /> <br />hmm..i got ntg to say liao noR..haiz..so sianz..holiday liao..wahZ.. <br /> <br />("v") <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110121718421973052?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1101130714239316262004-11-22T21:38:00.000-08:002004-11-22T05:38:34.240-08:00haiz..tml got band aR..omg..hate band so much..wanna quit at the very first beginning..haiz..see, i tahan for three years liao...haiz..three years woR..omg.. hahax..nvm la..going to end soon!!! afetr syf!!!! muahaha.. <br /> <br />okaes..ntg much.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110113071423931626?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1100933168578874342004-11-19T14:46:00.000-08:002004-11-19T22:46:08.576-08:00hmm..hahax..sianz aR.haiz..long time nv write le..hahaX..haiz..yesterday got band..haiZ..so sianz..really feel band is very sianz liao le..haiZ... hmm..i dunno wat to write liao..lolX.. hahaX.. actually today wanna go out dE..hahaX...but i lazy..hehex.. lolx..heheX.. <br /> <br />ntg to write le la.. haiyo!!!! <br /> <br />i miss my dear.. :D <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110093316857887434?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1100248199263544382004-11-12T16:30:00.000-08:002004-11-12T00:29:59.263-08:00today sianz..first day in the morning got band...haiz..early in the morning wake up..omg..so sianz...so tired...oh!! haiz..band until 12..sianz aR!!!! haiz...haiz..wanna quit band <br /> <br />hmm..haiz..everytime afternoon rain..cant go out..sianz lor.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110024819926354438?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8097833.post-1100076086504934342004-11-10T16:41:00.000-08:002004-11-10T00:41:26.503-08:00hahaX..extended term finally finish!!! i am so happy!! <br /> <br />heheX..haiz..but not good.. haiz..got band aR!! omg..i hate band!!! haiz..band is so sianz..haiz..i wanna quit! <br /> <br />hmm..haiz..headache..hahaX.last sunday we went escape play..omg...now then i realise i am so scared of heights..hehex..lolX... when i was young i wasnt scared..but now scared until like that..omg..hahaX.. <br /> <br />okok la..ntg to say much loR..coz extended term finish liao..i happy like hell... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8097833-110007608650493434?l=zzfinal-dustzz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ever freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04210442264162002998noreply@blogger.com0